Lily trying to deconstruct what went wrong sometime January

Do you really want to know what women want?

It isn't good looks or big cocks, not even money...

We just want you to love yourself more than us,

be the best person that you can be...

because when you're confident, we get strength from you.

Isn't it the same thing that you want from us?

Too bad when you love yourselves too much,

sometimes you forget about us or outgrow us

because our growth is stagnant because

we are too contented just admiring you when

we should be growing too

Because just like us, you're also looking for

something you can be proud of from your partner...

Sometimes we can't give it

because we are too busy being happy and contented

just in love with you... then you fall out of love..

Tangina.

SIT

a disorganized woman posing as workaholic,

a type B nympho posing as catatonic,

an insomniac posing as alcoholic.

Im obsessed with death

and for that I shouldn't be left alone,

but I find peace in giving anatripsis.

I am a mess

but let's see what a kiss on the forehead

and you're hand in mine can do.

BATANG YAGIT NA AMBISYOSA

sobrang insecure ako sa kanya!!! kala ko nung bata ganun lang kadali maging singer.... dami palang other factors na walang kinalaman sa talent at face value... like --- CONNECTIONS........... pero aminin mo SHE HAS IT (^_^) ang cute cute ni ate Shawie!

I learned she had her first album at 12... i was 7...sabi ko "pag twelve nako dapat may album na rin ako".... LOL tapos nagsisimula na akong pumanget at ma-expose sa hirap ng buhay, i realize mas kailangan pala mag focus kung paano maghanap ng kakainin mo araw araw kaysa mag ilusyon na pwede kang gumawa ng gawain ng mga mayaman hehehe times are hard.. pero ang masasabi ko sa mga kapareho kong walang resources .... JUST KEEP ON SINGING, indie tayo and our craft has it's own rewards other than fame (^_^)

from "diary of a scab eater"

a scab is a wound that has not completely healed

never make tungkab a scab, just let it peel off by itself

kase if you kalkal it too hard, the wound will become deeper

and the scar will be permanent

-yvette scattered light on "diary of a scab eater"

untitled 2002 school project (duet)

I

unattractive unacquainted

unconsidered unacknowledged

uncomplaining unclear unnoticed

II

don't you find it superficial

how could people be so civil

what was civil? being "plastik"

III

i was never liked

i couldn't fit in anywhere i go

someone tell me

why is everyone fading so soon

IV

listen close i won't be here for so long

i was likely to give up one day

i never want this

but you don't want me here

do you know just what I am saying?

V

listen now i know just how you're feeling

you feel alone but I have always been here

you may not notice, we've always been here

VI

(i was never liked, i couldn't fit in anywhere i go

someone tell me why is everyone fading so soon)

that is not so true, if you can't fit in anywhere you go

there's no need to ask, when everyone's fading so soon

VII

Stop crying lady

Just call on His name

With every teardrops He'll be with you

The Lord will guide our way

VIII

It is too late now

I am blinded by depression

Lately I am thinking the only cure

is to end my life one of these days

(repeat III and VI)

...we'll stay with you

untitled 2002 school project (solo)

unattractive unacquainted

unconsidered unacknowledged

uncomplaining unclear unnoticed

don't you find it superficial

how could people be so civil

what was civil? being "plastik"

i was never liked

i couldn't fit in anywhere i go

someone tell me

why is everyone fading so soon

listen close i won't be here for so long

i was likely to give up one day

i never want this

but you don't want me here

ugly life ahead (jan 15 2010)

i saw a playful cat ROLLING OVER in the middle of the road!

No it isn't roadkill - NOT YET.

im fuckin itching to pick that goddamuderfuckin DUMB cat!

Why does it have to be that STUPID!

Makes me empathize how my real friends feel about me
when I am being like that you know, THAT stupid.

Why can't that fuckin cat just stay on the sidewalk?!

Then I figured out it's a STRAY one and it isn't very cute

so most likely nobody will like her

so this means she will just have an UGLY LIFE AHEAD so like me, she's better off DEAD.